Gin? Yes please

I forgot to tell you, the other weekend when I had a flying visit to Newcastle, I was staying with my mum and (no surprise) we were discussing my weight! My husband said that (even though he knew I didn't want to hear it) that there was a correlation with my weight loss stopping and me drinking again (remember I had a dry January?). To which my mother responded - and I quote - "oh Gilly, you're not on the drink again?!". Ooh my goodness, does that not sound like I'm an alcoholic? But yes I am consuming the odd glass of wine or G&T. But maybe I should have a dry August... Just in case it's more than just a correlation!

Talking of my hubby, he never complains about my size. I frequently quiz him with corkers like 'would I be more attractive if I was slim/would you fancy me more if I was thinner/would you love me more if I was skinny??' to which he always replies the same way, 'Gilly you would be happier if you lost weight and that's all I want'. Until the other day!! When he made a formal complaint. Since I've put on 3 extra stones (aka let myself go) he's noticed that my knickers don't match my bra! I can not deny this. I used to always wear matching. Every new bra came with 2 pairs of matching knickers. I'm embarrassed to admit that the other day I wore a green bra with purple pants!! Good job I wasn't knocked over. You see, there are so many facets to being fat!

So things not going well with the weight issues. Mental health not great. This means I want to comfort eat and drink copious amounts of alcohol (it's ok mum, I'm still not an alcoholic) but I'm doing all things necessary to fix my head and then my body will follow. More next week!

Gin may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot!

PS I got caught out a treat once, when asking my hubby one of my cracking questions (those of you who have read my blog since the beginning will have heard this already, but I couldn't resist repeating it) upon asking him if my trousers made me look fat, he replied 'No, your fat makes you look fat!'

Stop the world...

Do you ever just feel like you're on a treadmill? You can't stop. You can't catch your breath. You have to keep walking but you just want to shout 'Stop!' Please just give me a minute, to take stock, to look around and smell the roses! This is not helping me lose weight. I can't think about it. It needs planning, and will power, and strategy and brain cells firing... But I just can't do at the moment. I'm on a run away train. Choo-choo!

You'll never believe this? We popped to Newcastle at the weekend for a flying visit (literally 36 hours!!) And I managed to put on 4lbs! Yes I had PMT, yes I was expecting a wheat baby, yes I indulged BUT 4lbs. How is that even possible?? I'm good - but I'm not that good. 

Well it's that time again. I think it is time for another poem! Lol I knew you'd be excited.

               Afternoon tea

My friend took me out for afternoon tea
A late birthday gift, a big treat for me
We arrived at the castle, with resident ghost
Once sat at the table (with bubbly to toast)
The waitress came over with a three tier cake stand
All that was missing was a Miners Brass Band
The sight of the cakes... My heart was a flutter
Petite finger sarnies with lashings of butter
The warm fruit scones with jam and fresh cream
I took a big bite and it tasted a dream
The top tier was last but where do I start?
Brownie, cake, macaron or a mini lime tart?
It will be no surprise that I managed it all
I slid off my chair and started to crawl
My friend had to roll me back to the car
It was a jolly good job it wasn't that far
Is it really any wonder I'm round in the tummy?
But I have to admit it was rather quite yummy!


My brain says 'crunches' but my stomach auto-corrects it to 'cupcakes'.

Post #109

I have been writing this blog for over 2 years now! Hasn't time flown? I've decided that it makes me an expert - in all things. So I thought I'd impart some of my wisdom.

Life according to Gilly :

1. If someone is slimmer than you they are not better than you, they are simply slimmer.

2. Don't try to lose weight if your mind is not in it. You'll be wasting time. Get you head sorted and things will be easier.

3. Drink gin - it's yummy!

4. I like a clean house but I hate housework. I do the minimum I can get away with (it does help that hubby will do it instead lol). I am only here for a finite amount of years and I will not waste that time on housework. Life is too short.

4b. If you like housework and clean daily to have a sparkling home that's up to you - whatever makes you happy. But you are not better than me, you're just different (and a bit weird). 

5. Never eat calories that you don't actually love. Food is delicious - don't eat things you don't like.

6. Love should not be hard. If your relationship is more than 10% difficult then try to fix that. Aim for between 10% - 5% difficulty. If you are more than 40% then you are doing it completely wrong. My advice? Bin it and start again. Don't squander your life with the wrong person - one day you'll regret it.

7. Do something nice for a stranger. You'll feel great and they will too.

8. Watch Wimbledon!

9. Don't be bullied. Don't watch other people being bullied. And obviously never do the bullying. When I was in middle school I remember a pupil in high school killed herself because she was bullied. I was about 11 years old and it has stuck with me. Don't ignore bullying! But also think that the bully is mostly likely very sad. Think about it... Have you ever known a really happy person being mean?

10. So being slimmer or cleaner does not make you better than me, so what does? Being kinder, more thoughtful, generous and more honest - these are the important things that count.

These are just my own personal views. Please don't sue me!

We all have two lives. The second one starts when we realise we only have one.

More Tigger less Eeyore

My cloud has dispersed and I've been frantically painting my stripes to be more like Tigger! This is good because a) It's not nice for me or anyone around me when I'm feeling low b) it is easier to control my eating. 

Now I've not gone mental and given up the chocolate but I have been concentrating on not eating crap and I've been eating healthier meals. So not necessarily low calorie meals (5-2 fasting will have to wait a little longer) but wholesome meals - porridge, fruit, Greek yogurt, salads, beans, couscous, salmon, chicken and nuts! You get my drift? Really scrummy food! And I've tried to limit my chocolate intake to the really good quality stuff (I'm not perfect of course but trying).

Did you see The Crash Diet Experiment on TV a few weeks ago? It was a well known fact that crash dieting was a big no no. It was thought that if you lost weight this way you'd put it straight back on and more. Now this isn't a lie however I think this is a danger no matter how you lose weight. It's not rocket science. If you lose weight then just return to the way you were eating before, that got you fat in the first place, then you're going to put it all back on! D'oh is that not common sense? I guess with crash diets you can't continue to eat like that for ever so at some point you have to stop the crash and eat proper food and you'll not have learnt how to eat better so it's far easier to go back to eating like you had been. The programme proved that losing weight quickly is not unhealthy per se. It's what you do after. I reckon if you're clever you could lose lots of weight quickly then eat healthily to keep it off! Losing weight is the number one thing to improve your health, followed by not smoking (or vice versa). I'd love to crash diet and get it all off quickly but I'm pretty sure I couldn't stick to it for more than a week. I'd be too hungry lol.

Summer is here and I've been in my bikini. And quite frankly I don't care who sees me! It's not because I think I look stunning (ha ha ha ha ha ha ha) but this is me. This is what I look like and I'm not hiding away for anybody. If you don't like my fat belly then look away. I think you should all get your bikinis on and don't give a stuff! Don't let other people dictate what's appropriate! Tell them to stick it up their Yahoo!!!


The best preparation for tomorrow is doing your best today!

Lost that pesky 2lbs! So back on track and ready for the next stone!