Blink and it's gone

Well another Christmas is over. In a flash. I hope you all had a great time. We did here thank you. Santa was nice.

The good news is that (believe it or not) I only put on one tiny little pound!! I know! Amazing. But hey... Still that's an extra pound I've got to lose to get to target. I've been trying to lose weight for so long I'm not even sure if I can remember what my target is! In fact, sod the target let's just lose some bloody weight!

Only a few days of 2018 left. Time to make New Year's resolutions. I guess it's the same ones as last year and the year before that - no smoking, no drinking, no eating, no slothing, no sitting on my bum for more than 10 mins, no recreational drugs. I suspect some of these will be easier to keep than others - I've never done a recreational drug in my life so that one will be in the bag!

Now when to start losing weight? Today - I have a lot of Christmas chocolate to get through! I'm thinking New Year. A proper (drum rolling, trumpet blowing) new beginning! 2019 will be my year.

I'm not sure about the future of this blog. My loyal core readers are still hanging in there (I thank you so much). I love to write but essentially I also want it be read by the millions. My numbers have fallen from 250-300 a week to about 50! Sad face! I'm blaming Facebook but maybe it's just gotten boring!? Let's face it - if you read it hoping to see a weight loss I understand you'll be disappointed quickly. Lol. Anyway, we'll see. I'll probably write until I'm left with one keen reader!!

Have a fantastic New Year. Let 2018 go out with a bang! Don't worry about what's gone wrong this year. Take a tip from Frozen and 'Let it Go'. Wednesday is a brand new year to try all over again.

No one can go back to make a new start but we can all change and make a new ending!

What's wrong with the coconut one?

Hi everyone. How are you? I'm good thanks. Looking forward to the big day - the day I'm a size 12!

We had a quick trip to Newcastle last weekend. It was a flash visit but really great. Of course, as you can imagine, talking to family/friends that I've not seen for awhile, and they've read my blog, the topic often got round to my weight. It never ceases to amaze me all the different kinds of dieting advice out there. Everyone had something to say and I have to remark that opinions were strong. I very much enjoy talking about weight loss. I like to listen to everybody's advice - and then I'll do my own thing. I suppose everyone is unique and what works for one might not work for another. I've also noticed that you can't push me into losing weight or make me do it your way. In fact if I even think that you disapprove of me eating a chocolate then I will eat 2 just to make a point. My mum has already told me that she doesn't approve of my mantra '2 stones in 12 months' and has told me that's not enough. Of course she says these things out of love. She wants me healthy and she's trying to encourage me and give me support but my psyche might just revolt.

My dad told me a story (I apologise if I've told you already). In 1976 he smoked 20 cigarettes a day. One day he had a sore throat so didn't have a cigarette on the drive to work instead waiting until he arrived. He arrived and decided not to have one until break. At break he was busy so didn't have one. Neither at lunch. And he went all day without smoking. The next day it was the same. He never decided to stop smoking he just kept putting off smoking one. This has continued for over 40 years and he still hasn't had that cigarette. For me this translates to not thinking about actually wanting to lose weight or to go on a diet but just to not have that biscuit/chocolate bar/cake now but to wait until later, then later still. Don't know if it'll work or if I'll even remember but I will try to incorporate it into my weight loss plan just in case.

I hope you all have a great Christmas and I'll speak to you next week. Thank you for continuing to read.

Don't keep the keys to your happiness in someone else's pocket!

Christmas is a coming

So I've had an extra boring week I'm afraid. The Christmas chocolates have been attacked. The biscuits have arrived in the office. And the Bailey's has been poured at home. (If you have yet to try the vanilla & cinnamon Bailey's, I urge you to partake! It's yum. Christmas in a glass). Trying to have a fast day has been at the back of my mind - and that is where I have left it, safely stored at the back.

I flashed my hubby the other day. No not my boobs, just my belly. He laughed and told me he knew what my next tattoo should be... You guessed it.... The face of the space hopper! On my rotund belly!! How rude of him, comparing my lovely tummy to a big round orange ball. Of course he wasn't wrong. It does describe it to a T - but still, can you imagine his cheek in actually saying it. Some things should only be thought not said. Like the time I thought his bum was looking a big saggy! I thought it but didn't tell him!! Oh, hold on, nope I did tell him! Ha ha ha

When we next speak I will be a lady of leisure. Anyone free for coffee? This could be great if I use the time constructively and go to the gym. But I suspect I'll probably sit on the sofa and eat cake! I'm so going to have pull my socks up. It is a disaster with my name on in.

I need a mantra. '2 stones in 12 months. 2 stones in 12 months. 2 stones in 12 months!' There, that'll sort it.

Go ahead, judge me! But just remember to be perfect the rest of your life.

Anti-climax

So this week wasn't quite what was planned. I'd booked a few days off work to have the balloon fitted, which as you know didn't happen. I finish work in 2 weeks so I kept the leave. This is the first time I've taken holiday and been at home. All my leave is uaually taken up by going away. I must admit I've had a ball. It's been so cool.

Ok it started by doing my self assessment tax...eugh! But good to get it done. It also involved pizza (see left), putting up the Christmas decorations, wrapping presents, seeing friends, going to the cinema (Ralph Breaks the Internet - all old people should see this movie, it explained the internet in a way even I understood), and a little bit of chocolate and gin!

Now I'm going to be honest. I really want to go to bed, take a magic pill, and wake up 6 stones lighter!! Anything else is just ball-ache! So second best is losing 5 stones over a year. And, yes, I know that's pretty unrealistic too but I have to tell you that is what I want. Now the sensible Gilly understands that even losing 4 stones over 4 years is so much better than not losing any weight but I really do find it hard to swallow. Sensible doesn't really fit in my vocabulary. I want to lose weight and I want to lose it now!!! Goddamnit!

Now I have kind of started the 5-2 again. Had my first fast day on Monday and my second will be today. Obviously it's so close to 'eating and drinking for a month until you pop' aka Christmas, that I'm not really trying to actually lose weight (that will be in January - obvs) but more a kind of just keeping things in check so that I'm not eating and drinking for a month popping!!

I may sound blasé but I'm truly not. Come 2019 my butt will be on fire!

Notice the people who make an effort to stay in your life.