Two in one day!

Current weight : 14st 9.5lbs
Fat : Oops forgot!
Loss : well...1lb from last week but zero in total! I weigh the same as week one.

This isn't going as well as I had anticipated. By now I had envisioned a photo in my knickers and everyone telling me 'Blimey, you can really see you've lost weight'. Phah. Didn't even bother with the knicker shot this morning (if you want to perv you'll have to see week one - trust me, that's how I look today!!) Instead that's me this morning after 15 mins of HIIT (yeah yeah OK, I managed 11 mins - but look at me, hot sweaty and pretty knackered). I'm being far too honest here. Let me try again...the photo is me this morning after 20 mins of HIIT.

My (self appointed) PT was waking me at 7am this morning, and was going to do the timings for me - yep, he's still in bed now! I think I should sack him. I am of course talking about my 15 year old son. He is so supportive. He questions every mouthful of wine (do I really want those empty calories? Normally I say yes). He happily eats all the healthy meals I make, and he encourages me to exercise (then he sleeps in). Bless, he's doing a great job. I borrowed Lean in 15 by Joe Wicks from a friend. His food philosophy is like mine and the recipes are great (none of that stupid ingredients - you know, the stuff you have to get from health food shops and not your supermarket). I decided to buy the book - my son thought he should read it first to make sure it was suitable and I wasn't wasting my money, lol. He read from front to back, nodding at the meals he wanted to try, and gave me full approval to purchase! Said 15 year old has no nutritional qualifications. Exercise for him is running downstairs every 30 mins for food!

Monday I had 2 frappes!! They are evil and should be banned!!

I was going to talk about my ethos, but as usual I got sidetracked - next week!

A goal without action is just a dream.

It's bad!

Current weight : 14st 10.5lbs
Fat : 45%

Yikes, well that's the damage of my holiday. I weigh more today than I did when I started. I'm wondering if I need to change my ethos of holidays? I thought I would cheer us all up with a photo of my puppy when she was 8 weeks old...it's her birthday on Wednesday and she'll be 2 years. Now don't we all feel better? (no, not really, gutted). We can't change the past so lets just move forward and start again!!

So, focus - Motivation. Obviously my real goal is to lose weight, but if I'm motivated to do that then it will wane. Once I've lost, say, 3st I'll feel better, look better and the fact I'm 2st away from target won't feel so important (or desperate) as it is today. Once I get to target then I will have no motivation to lose weight as I'll have none to lose and then we all know what will happen  ;-0

Therefore my motivation must be on my need/desire to be fit and healthly, and weight loss will be a by product. Even at target I will still want to be healthy as that never stops. Now telling my head this is another thing. I'm absorbed with the idea of wearing size 12 jeans!! No Gilly! You want to be fit and be able to climb bloody Bennachie without swearing and being puce and stopping every 10 steps and quite frankly looking like I'm having a heart attack!! So that's my new goal - and I'll be wearing size 12 jeans when I do it.

This week I have learnt that I have an unhealthy addiction to McDonalds Caramel Frappes. They are lush! But I must stop (or at least cut down - daily is excessive lol)

It is always sunny above the clouds.

We're all going on a summer holiday.

The photo on this blog has been removed for health & safety reasons. If I ever saw it on my facebook page again I was liable to kill someone.





Oh my goodness that is a totally tragic photo! Folk tell me I'm brave posting pics in my underwear, I think I'm brave posting this one. I look bloody awful! Give me a knicker shot any day.

So we're away on holiday. No scales available so no weight measured. You'll have to wait until next week to see the damage. And yes I'm pretty confident that damage has been done. I'm on holiday... Do I want to be watching what I eat? No! I want my holiday to be an excuse to tuck in. Afternoon coffee, would you like a slice of cake with that? Yes please. Bailey's as a night cap? Be rude not to. Hot tub with or without prosecco? Don't ask silly questions. Chocolate with our evening coffee? Yeah it's a family tradition!! But is it really worth it? I can easily put on 7lbs in a week and I'm not kidding it's a skill of mine. And that would take me a few weeks to get rid of. And if this was my only annual holiday I'd say it is so worth it. You save hard and look forward to getting away all year who wants to refuse that slice of cake? But of course, if you know me you'll know I Ihave a few holidays. I spend my weeks trying to lose my excess holiday lbs just in time to go away again and put them all on again. Hence I go round in circles. Weight on, weight off, weight on, weight off! Something needs to change... Maybe my next holiday things will be more appropriate to losing weight lol. Don't hold your breathe.

However I must declare that we have walked..a lot. See exhibit A above. 9 mile walk around the reservoir. First 3 miles OK, on a path right next to the water. But then for the next 3 miles we were off piste. Through fields, long grass, through forests, more long grass this time in a bog. Very muddy and wet and horrible. Over a stream.... it was almost through a stream! The bridge was a telegraph pole lol. Back into fields and finally on a road. Last 3 miles following the track back to the water was tough. As you can see I was hot, knackered and fed up! But my God the hot tub felt fab.

I've learnt this week? Yep step on the tufts of grass in a bog!

An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind.

Wheat Belly

Current weight : 14st 6lb
Fat : 46%

This week : gained 0.5lb 
Fat : gained 1%

Total weight loss : 3.5lb
Fat : a big fat zero (forgive the pun)










Oh dear, it was bound to happen, just disappointing it was quite so soon! But we will not dwell. Last week has gone, we can not change it, we can only move forward. I have just one thing to say in my defence 'PMT'!! (I know, excuses, excuses - but chocolate screams for me all day, hard to ignore).

I thought it was time to introduce you to my Wheat Baby. Picture on left was 2 weeks ago, Picture on right is this morning, after eating something containing wheat. Can you spot the subtle difference? about 2 months gestation? I think my belly is about 7 months pregnant. Alas (or more correctly - Thank God) no real baby. 

About 15 years ago I was suffering with really bad IBS symptons - diarrhoea (yes I can spell it!) bad, bad tummy cramps, bloating (can you tell?) and very smelly bottom burps (my mother in law reads this so I won't use the F word (no, not fuck I'll happily use that, and the other F word, Fat, most definitely use that word!) I will refrain from saying f**t.) At the same time I read an article that stated you can suddenly start developing intolerances to certain food at any age. My sister had just spent a month following The Carol Vorderman Detox, and she suggested I do the same. So I did! I laugh now but at the time (remember - 15 years ago!) it was seriously radical - no meat, no fish, no wheat, no diary, no sugar, no alcohol, no tea/coffee! I thought it didn't leave much - fruit, veg, pulses, beans, rice, oats. I was slightly mocked by a few pals but I managed and I felt fantastic!! Of course this extreme way of eating is now common place, clean eating, advocated all over the web and in recipe books, and used by all. Anyhow, I slowly introduced the 'no no' food groups and yes my bottom burps returned. I went to see my GP, who was fantastic, gave me a blood test and declared I had a wheat intolerance. I cut out wheat - I felt great. I ate wheat - I felt like shit, the tummy pains were the worst symptoms. Often on the floor in pain. Of course, this begs the question 'Why the hell did I ever eat it?'. Yeah well thats just me. Self sabourtage Gilly! 

Today I do eat wheat (in moderation) no longer get the pains, or smelly bottom burps, just (as is obvious to even the untrained eye) bloating. Now where are the biscuits....?


This week I learnt that eating too much chocolate will hinder my weight loss. Hahahahaha

Friendship is when someone knows all about you, but likes you anyhow.

Well I did say goals were not my forte!

Current weight 14st 5.5lbs
Fat 45%

Week loss 1lb & 1%
Total loss 4lb & 1%

So the day after my blog we go out to celebrate my daughters half birthday (she was born on Christmas Day so we have always celebrated on 25 June...yep yada yada yada. Lots of folk don't agree with it, but hey I do.) So off we went to my current favourite ever restaurant/eatery Thaik Hun. I ordered the most delicious dish Tad Phai, Thai Pad Pad Thai! With a cocktail. Then a glass of wine, when someone at the table piped up 'Hey, I thought you were abstaining?' Ha ha I had completely forgotten! I gave the rest of my wine to my hubby and I've been good the rest of the week.

But there you go, I set a goal and I failed within 48 hours. But failure here is not an option. And I lost 1lb so did I fail? In fact I'm removing that word from my dictionary. I had decided not to drink alcohol but I did. Who have I let down? Nobody but myself? Well I don't feel let down because I enjoyed a gorgeous cocktail, thank you very much!

And look at the words I chose 'I've been good...' so when I'm not good I'm bad? Well I don't think I like those words either. Obviously some foods are more conducive to losing weight but that doesn't mean some foods are bad, and it definitely does not mean that I'm bad. I don't want to be good or bad, I'm just me. Trying to be a decent person, trying to lose weight, and I'll continue to make food choices based primarily on those things that will assist my weight loss and health, but at the same time sometimes choosing that coconut ice cream with smarties!!

Well I was going to talk about how I got so fat (coconut ice cream with smarties is only part of the story), but I got side tracked and I don't want to bore you lol. So next week?

Oh and BTW I'm out tonight and I WILL be drinking alcohol! 

This week I've learnt to listen to my gut instincts.

If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got.