Baggy trousers

So a more difficult week. I'm afraid PMT struck! I was literally desperate for chocolate on Monday. My colleague popped out and said she'd bring me something back. I thought maybe a Freddo or a finger of fudge or maybe a Crunchie. This is what she brought! The whole shop! I didn't complain once. Just tucked into the mini eggs! Yum! They did the trick... For about 30 mins.

Same friend asked me what PMT stood for. I gave her a parapraxis (word of the week) answer - Post Mental Tension! I think that's pretty apt but so is Pass My Treats. Or if you prefer PMS - Please More Sugar!

I've been back to the gym, but only once. I've had a busy week. But I will get back properly. But, and it's a big but, I've noticed my jeans have become baggy and I threw some knickers in the bin (the elastic had gone.. But hey they were falling down still!) And...a few people have commented that I'm looking trimmer. All good but a long way to go. My photo for my first stone is not that far off though 😁😁

I must share a funny conversation on my family's group what's app this week between my husband and daughter. I've not asked their permission to publish so I'll disguise their names so you don't know which husband or which daughter I'm speaking of. H = husband, D = daughter, Bumblebee = our cat.

D - Bumblebee is in the dining room eating a mouse. HELP
H - Shut the kitchen and hallway doors, open the door to the garden and coax         him outside.
D - I have done. OMG he's got out! I don't know where the mouse is!
H - Ha ha ha
D - Found it... He's just spewed it up on the carpet!

Don't just assume that when I'm angry I'm on my period. Otherwise when you are sleeping I'll assume you're dead and bury you in the back garden!

Word of the week - parapraxis, also called Freudian slip, is an error of speech that is interpreted as occurring due to the interference of an unconscious subdued wish or internal train of thought.

Snuffles and sneezes

A friend of mine gave me this lovely mug and pen from her holidays. Guess where she's been? Yep, Bognor Regis! Ha ha - kidding.

So I've felt a bit poorly this week. I've had the works - sore throat, nose bleeds, headaches and on Wednesday I lost my voice! It was quiet everywhere I went. I've not had the energy to exercise but you would never believe it... I've kind of missed it. Yes really. Who'd have thought it. I'm hoping to go back to the gym tonight though. I reckon the sauna will do me a power of good.

Something else quite remarkable - almost the second I decided that I couldn't go sugar free my consumption of sugar must have literally halved. Or more. I've hardly eaten any this week. And what I have had has been eaten with much mindfulness and savoured. To be honest I find it quite scary, the power of my mind. When I told myself I couldn't have it, I wanted it big style. When I gave myself permission I didn't need it so much. I'm not exaggerating when I say it's blown my mind. We all know these things but to actually experience it head on - wow! It's awesome!!

I'm really into the swing of things now. My 2 fast days aren't a struggle and I'm enjoying eating healthy for 5 days. And I still have what I fancy as long as it's under control. It won't be long before I post a new knicker shot! I feel like I should confess though. My fast days are around 500-600 calories and...um... Sometimes about 300 of those calories are chocolate (not this week of course, they've been celery and sugar snap peas and Greek yogurt and cottage cheese - not in the same bowl). But (when I was fighting with sugar) they were, I can't lie. But a calories of chocolate is a calories of lettuce, is a calorie! And on a calorie controlled day it's just a calorie. Still lost weight... But I have scurvy!!

Don't change so people like you. Find the right people to love you for who you are.

Sugar for my honey

This week's post will probably be short and sweet (no pun intended). You know when you just feel like you're coming down with a cold? Sore head, aching face (sinus pain), scratchy throat and sneezing? That's me now. Just in time for the weekend 😒. I'm nursing a hot toddy (hot lemonade, whisky, lemon and honey) with a couple of paracetamol! Going to knock it on the head before it takes a hold. I honestly can not remember the last time I had a cold. The good news is that this is only my second drink of alcohol all week!!

So I thought about the sugar free month thing. It was a shock. I wasn't expecting it. Hadn't thought about it or prepared for it. And I had a burning question... what is sugar? We have fructose and sucrose and lactose and maltose and alcotose and smartietose and fingers and toes (sorry I'm getting carried away). I'm not giving up fruit or dairy for starters! So I thought maybe just the added sugar - sweets and chocolates and biscuits and cake and all the rest! I could do that. Just February. Just 4 weeks! Only 28 days! I can do that!! I failed on day one!! In fact just the thought of not eating it made me eat it even more. It was a big psychological problem. I really really just couldn't do it. I think I've eaten more chocolate this week than I have since Christmas. And quite frankly I can't afford the calories! So I'm sorry I'm not giving up sugar! I need my fix.

Anyway, I'm still doing the 5-2 diet. Enjoying it in fact. In the swing! Fingers crossed for more weight loss this week.

That's me....I so need my bed! 🤧🤒😠

Don't judge my story by the chapter you walk in on.

Hello February

Dry January is done! I thought I'd wait until tonight to have a drink but I just couldn't resist last night. I'd been to the gym, came home and jumped in the bath... With an Aperol spritz. I had it in Austria last year and it was delicious. I have to say I was a bit disappointed last night. Not as nice as I remember! C'est la vie.

Funnily enough my magazine last month had an article about three readers being dry for a month (I'm not talking incontinence). But the magazine gave them blood tests and scans before and after. Their liver fat decreased for all three. Something about their blood test improved and two of them lost weight. They all had some other type of improvement too. Either they had more energy, or their skin was glowing or their hair was shinier. I gave up alcohol for a month and I saw no difference at all!! Obviously had I been offered the tests and scans then I dare say I'd show the same sort of improvements as the women in the magazine, but we'll never know. Now, I have lost weight - but then I've been trying very hard with my diet and exercise. Hum...I don't think I'll go back to drinking as much as before (as it wasn't very difficult). But if my weight loss slows down or stops now I'm back on the booze, I will give it up again!

I was so chuffed this week when my boss said she could see I'd lost weight!!! It won't be long (fingers crossed) before I'm posting another knicker shot for you all to see some weight loss! Whoop whoop. I'm so excited!

Junk food you've craved for an hour? Or the body you've craved for a lifetime?

PS sugar free February!?

Oh my goodness! Could I actually do this? A whole month with no sugar? I need to sleep on it... I'll let you know next week if I decided to give it a shot. I have to confess my blood is running cold at the thought... But it's only 28 days. Get a grip Gilly!!!