Snuffles and sneezes

A friend of mine gave me this lovely mug and pen from her holidays. Guess where she's been? Yep, Bognor Regis! Ha ha - kidding.

So I've felt a bit poorly this week. I've had the works - sore throat, nose bleeds, headaches and on Wednesday I lost my voice! It was quiet everywhere I went. I've not had the energy to exercise but you would never believe it... I've kind of missed it. Yes really. Who'd have thought it. I'm hoping to go back to the gym tonight though. I reckon the sauna will do me a power of good.

Something else quite remarkable - almost the second I decided that I couldn't go sugar free my consumption of sugar must have literally halved. Or more. I've hardly eaten any this week. And what I have had has been eaten with much mindfulness and savoured. To be honest I find it quite scary, the power of my mind. When I told myself I couldn't have it, I wanted it big style. When I gave myself permission I didn't need it so much. I'm not exaggerating when I say it's blown my mind. We all know these things but to actually experience it head on - wow! It's awesome!!

I'm really into the swing of things now. My 2 fast days aren't a struggle and I'm enjoying eating healthy for 5 days. And I still have what I fancy as long as it's under control. It won't be long before I post a new knicker shot! I feel like I should confess though. My fast days are around 500-600 calories and...um... Sometimes about 300 of those calories are chocolate (not this week of course, they've been celery and sugar snap peas and Greek yogurt and cottage cheese - not in the same bowl). But (when I was fighting with sugar) they were, I can't lie. But a calories of chocolate is a calories of lettuce, is a calorie! And on a calorie controlled day it's just a calorie. Still lost weight... But I have scurvy!!

Don't change so people like you. Find the right people to love you for who you are.