Gin? Yes please

I forgot to tell you, the other weekend when I had a flying visit to Newcastle, I was staying with my mum and (no surprise) we were discussing my weight! My husband said that (even though he knew I didn't want to hear it) that there was a correlation with my weight loss stopping and me drinking again (remember I had a dry January?). To which my mother responded - and I quote - "oh Gilly, you're not on the drink again?!". Ooh my goodness, does that not sound like I'm an alcoholic? But yes I am consuming the odd glass of wine or G&T. But maybe I should have a dry August... Just in case it's more than just a correlation!

Talking of my hubby, he never complains about my size. I frequently quiz him with corkers like 'would I be more attractive if I was slim/would you fancy me more if I was thinner/would you love me more if I was skinny??' to which he always replies the same way, 'Gilly you would be happier if you lost weight and that's all I want'. Until the other day!! When he made a formal complaint. Since I've put on 3 extra stones (aka let myself go) he's noticed that my knickers don't match my bra! I can not deny this. I used to always wear matching. Every new bra came with 2 pairs of matching knickers. I'm embarrassed to admit that the other day I wore a green bra with purple pants!! Good job I wasn't knocked over. You see, there are so many facets to being fat!

So things not going well with the weight issues. Mental health not great. This means I want to comfort eat and drink copious amounts of alcohol (it's ok mum, I'm still not an alcoholic) but I'm doing all things necessary to fix my head and then my body will follow. More next week!

Gin may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot!

PS I got caught out a treat once, when asking my hubby one of my cracking questions (those of you who have read my blog since the beginning will have heard this already, but I couldn't resist repeating it) upon asking him if my trousers made me look fat, he replied 'No, your fat makes you look fat!'