Monty python

What have the Romans ever done for us? I'm hoping you all know the scene in the Monty Python movie 'Life of Brian'? Because that's been my week...

I'm struggling with this dieting lark a lot! And I've just been asking why the hell am I doing this? I'm spending my life either worried about what I'm eating and trying not to eat it, or I'm just eating it. Why?? Does it matter? Who am I doing this for? Me? Other people? Strangers? My mum? My mum thinks that obesity will kill me before old age gets her (and she's 79!). Though she may not actually say it I know she worries about my health and obesity related conditions.

So why am I trying to lose weight? Well, it'll make my mum happy. But apart from my happy mum why am I trying to lose weight? So I can run around with my grandchild (This was hubby's thought). So apart from my mum and my non existent grandchildren why am I trying to lose weight? Well my jeans would look much better on me. So my mum, my grandkids, my jeans but why am I trying to lose weight? I'll look more gorgeous, I'll fit better in airplane seats, I'll be so happy, I'll get my diamond ring, my blood pressure will improve. So apart from my mum, the grandkids, my jeans, my gorgeousness, airplanes, happiness, rings and hypertension, why am I trying to lose weight??

Wednesday was my rock bottom. Tears at my friends house because I looked in the mirror and saw what I saw - my fat! I was utterly miserable. My mate told me that I was still gorgeous! And I know she really thinks that. I need more convincing though. Then I thought of this week's picture. When I post photos of me (mostly knickers shots) I look a sight! My hairs a mess, no makeup, just rolled out of bed. So my challenge was to post a photo with all my fat (can't really remove it lol) but looking half decent. I don't have to be a clampit just because I'm over weight? Maybe I can feel and look gorgeous?

Life isn't about finding ourselves, life is about creating ourselves.