We've had a few days away. Hot tub, sauna, double bath, lots of prosecco - all very romantic. One afternoon I decided to snuggle on the hammock with my blanket and a book, in the sun and fresh air. Guess who decided to join me? Oh yes, Libby the Labrador likes a hammock and furry blanket too! So much for peace and book reading lol. She does snuggle well though!
I don't want this to be doom and gloom - you know I always try to make you smile rather than frown - but today it's all gloom and doom. My diet? What diet? Yet again I've failed to pick up the pace. I'm in that place where I'm stuck in a jam. I can't do what I need to and I'm not losing weight. I've been doing this, writing my diet blog, for over 4 years and I've got no where. I've been trying to lose weight for 27 years. And where have I got? Just round and round in circles. I have some success then it slips and I go back to the beginning. What the hell do I do? After all this time we can't say that I'm a successful dieter can we? But how long do I keep on this treadmill? I'm miserable. Miserable at failing. Miserable at not managing to keep off what I've lost. But most of all I'm miserable being fat! It's not attractive. And it's really not healthy. But what do I do? I'm sorry guys, I know I've said all this before. I'm sorry I can't entertain you. I'm sorry that my blog might stop. No point me just writing about how bad I am at dieting! Don't you think? The thing is I don't think I can stop. I can't accept the way I look! I really really want to be thinner, healthier. I want to stop snoring and reduce my blood pressure if nothing else. Please don't tell me I'm lovely as I am - thank you though. If you can think of anything to say to help me though I'd appreciate your input. I can't do part time dieting, I can only do all in. So close to Christmas I'm demotivated knowing that any weight I might lose now will all go to pot during the festivities. And I just can be arsed to put in that kind of effort to feel shit again come new year! The only thing keeping me going is that after Hogmanay it's a new year, new start! I'm forgetting about losing 5 stones. Just 3! I just want to go full throttle and lose 3 stone. I should feel and look better then. And at that point I'll deal with the almost inevitable, trying to stay there.
Sorry this has been a bit poo. Please message me with your thoughts and ideas - if you think you can help me I'd be forever grateful xx
Sometimes I just want someone to hug me and tell me it's ok. To give me a large glass of prosecco and £5,000,000!
I've been dieting all my life too. Its really bloody hard to stick to. I put on 10lbs in the first 3 months of lockdown and was determined to get it off. I heard high protein is the way to go so I got protein weetabix for breakfast (need sugar on it though) cut out processed foods so I have beans and 1 slice of toast for lunch and meat and veg for supper and I walk for 4-5 miles a day when I'm not working.I lost 15lbs but I've stayed the same the past 4 weeks as I can't resist a few biscuits with my cup of tea 😄
ReplyDeleteYou just have to find what works for you. Hopefully you find your motivation xx