Ragdale Bliss

Weight today : 15st 1lb
Gain : 2.5 lbs
Total loss : 1lb



It's a hard life! Just had a few days in Ragdale Hall Health & Thermal Spa. Too awesome for words. Did you know that in 1973 Ragdale was owned by Slimming World, and all guests were given 500 calories of food daily? Obviously, check my weight gain, things have changed lol.

I also discovered that I'm a floater. So you'd think being so heavy I'd sink...but no! It must be down to surface area. Think of my big bum like a boat. Lots of area to displace water. In the Candle Pool (like an underground cave with sparkling lights and lots of candles with lovely warm water) most can just lie on the underwater seating - not me. I just float away, I could probably float to Nottingham if I wasn't careful. I have to find an alcove, prop my head on the head rail and my feet on the wall, and sandwich myself in. Only then can I relax and enjoy the water.

Now I wasn't the biggest there, but I was sometimes the biggest in the exercise classes. This was hard. Facing a full mirrored wall with nothing else to look at but my wobbly bits and girth. Hum, didn't like it, but at least I did the class. Now obviously we all come in different shapes and sizes. I noticed that some had really huge middles but their arms, legs and head were kind of normal looking. I guess I'm glad I have a fat face. I try to avoid looking in the mirror at my body but my face is hard to avoid - putting on makeup or brushing my teeth is impossible if I'm not looking! And my fat face is a constant reminder that I'm fat all over. If my face looked normal I might forget about the rest. Maybe?

I didn't try to be bad but I didn't try to be particular good either. On Saturday in the Metro Centre I met 3 friends, one after the other, so that was 3 cappuccinos in a row (OK OK OK...2 cappuccinos and a hot chocolate - I got fed up of coffee - so shoot me), Indian food with family, and lots of driving (about 500 miles each way) so snacks and sweeties but all worth it!!

Um I might have a running plan...but I'll tell you next week.

I have a condition that prevents me from dieting, it's called being freaking hungry!