A plan

So Santa is fat and he never gets any stick! In fact he's better the fatter he is. Could you imagine a skinny Santa? Just wouldn't be right would it? He just eats cookies and mince pies and if he has high blood pressure or diabetes it doesn't show! And he's been alive for years and years. Of course he only works one day a year - maybe that's his secret? Hummm... Wonder if my boss would go for that?!

I've actually found something seemingly delicious that I don't like. Bailey's thick cream! Who'd have thought it? I love cream and I love Bailey's, so WTF? Weird. But do not despair I've not given up. Still having some on my warm mince pies and it's growing on me. I never give up easily. Maybe it's not so bad.

I've been thinking. There is something fundamentally wrong with me that I can't seem to lose weight. And I admit part of me wonders why I should. I know it's not so healthy but then that means nothing. I just found out this week that Nicki Waterman died (months and months ago). She was a fitness trainer to the rich and famous. She was pretty and slim and fit and healthy and she still died. Shouldn't we all concentrate on being happy? I do think I'd be happier skinny but unhappy trying to get there. So I have a new plan! Forget the 5 stones I need to lose. One stone! I just want to lose one stone (and be a size 16). I think I can do a stone and I think it'll make me happy. But that's it. Just one stone. I truly am forgetting the rest. I'm not planning anything before Christmas - just won't happen. Christmas parties/chocolate/prosecco/ festivities! I promised my daughter I'd be a size 14 by Christmas but ain't going to happen! Whatever she's bought won't fit! Oops! Don't tell her... I'll surprise her on Christmas morning. T'dar! Still fat!!!

Remember you are what you eat. Try eating a skinny person!

PS if I lose a stone I reserve the right to change my mind and lose another stone 😉