If I was a slim girl!

Look at what I have to put up with at work! They are tucking into a giant Apple pie. With Gay abandon! Is it any wonder I struggle with food? And yes I did have a big slice of pie.... Twice (at least).

So getting back to plan hasn't gone to plan. I didn't forgot but just kind of didn't do it. I wanted to but still didn't do it. I really need to and yet I didn't do it. I've watched TV all about it - The Truth About Carbs/Crash Diet Experiment/Beach Body in 4 weeks/Get Fit Fast etc etc and yet I still didn't do it. I need a slap (oy! Don't all queue up thank you). But take heart. I bloody well will do it!! I'm breaking myself in gently. PMT etc is responsible! That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it. Even being poorly yesterday only dampened my appetite temporarily. Bailey's and Apple pie is just so good.

Also, whilst losing weight is pretty much on my mind constantly it has occurred to me that not much will change. Obviously in my head when I'm slim I'll be more attractive and (please God) I'll be healthier. But I'll still be me. Just Gilly! I won't be kinder or smarter or more thoughtful. I'll still do a good job at work and I'll still love my holidays and I won't be nicer or funnier or better. I'll still just be me. What will Gilly be except slimmer?

All you slim people can answer this for me. Do you think about how great it is being slim all the time? I think about being fat all the time and when I see gorgeous slim people I presume in their head they are saying 'oh my goodness I'm slim and I'm happy and I look fantastic and I love it!' Cos when I'm slim that's what I'm sure will be running through my head all day every day! Surely??!!

You never hear skinny  people saying that they are just small boned.

CORRECTION : So I have to apologise to my hubby. Last week I told you that when I asked him if he wanted to write my blog he told me to 'Fuck Off.' My husband feels that this was woefully under-reported and he has asked me to rectify. What actually happened was that the colour drained from his face, he started to shake and vomited in the loo. Then he said 'Fuck off Gilly I can't do that!' and added something like 'I'd rather poke out my own eyes!' I apologise for this error and hope that no one was offended by this omission.