One day is important - today!

My neighbours offered me top soil for my veg plot. We first needed to find it - not grown anything for a few years! It was buried behind 6 foot bushes in the back of the garden. Weeds were shoulder height and a couple of trees had grown in it - not even kidding. My son decided (with a little help from mum) that it should be his project! All yesterday morning he worked on the weeds. What an improvement!! I just wish I'd taken a before picture. Anyway I shall keep you posted!

So I was chatting to a friend about this new craze of aging yourself using an app! And how we all want more. We put our lives on hold waiting until we are thinner, richer, prettier. And now we want to look into the future to see what we might look like when we're 80! Why are we wishing our lives away? Which brings me to....

I've not given up wanting to be a healthier weight (no way!) But it's not happening just now. Not the right frame of mind, and we all know how important that is. But whilst I wait for everything to slot back into place I need to be happy with what I have. It is not perfect but it's me. I want to be confident and content with today's Gilly, and not sit just praying for the perfect Gilly (which obviously doesn't exist - let's face it, even at size 12 I'll still only be 5' 3", still have stretch marks and my c-section scar. I'll still have grey roots and hair that goes mental when it's not had a blow dry. I'll probably still have a wobbly tummy and not so very perk boobs. And I'll definitely still have weird feet). Therefore I want to embrace this life, my body - what it can and can't do. I'll be confident and sexy and not worry about my fat and my bum. And until I actually feel confident and sexy I'm going to fake it until I make it. My mum always said I should be an actress. I'm going to pretend to be that Gilly. And one day I will morph into her.

Whilst I'm doing this I going to endeavour to at least stay in the 13s. My scales will not creep into the 14 stones!! Surely I can manage this at least. Just a wee concession!

"I just want to live each day and invent my own rules" Said by actress Lily James, Okay magazine Sept 2019