I'm a dreamer

 

So when I say I'm a dreamer I know most of you are agreeing - Gilly in her dream world. I'm not disagreeing, I like being in my head (most of the time), as I know everyone in there! But I'm actually talking about involuntary dreams when we sleep. I go to bed and I dream, two or three vivid dreams, every single night. They are long and weird stories and mostly very unsettling. Just recently all my dreams have been bad ones. I dreamt I was dying, I could feel my blood pressure lowering and I was drifting. I woke up before I 'died'. Another, I was being bullied in an airplane by all the other passengers. And the other night I dreamt of Santa (he was an ordinary guy) and he'd crashed his sleigh (this was a Boeing jumbo yet) and it was very stressful. My mum dreams a lot so I guess it's in my genes. It's exhausting. And before you ask, I don't eat cheese before bed!

I have managed to lose a pound this week, surprisingly. I've done two diet related activities this week...

Firstly, I needed some motivation so I googled 'Why should I lose weight?'. I got some interesting answers. The usual suspects, of course, to help prevent illnesses and conditions including cancers, heart disease, stroke, diabetes, arthritis (not thought of this one), high blood pressure and now we can add covid19. Then there is the other obvious one - to fit into smaller clothes. And to look better and more attractive, have more confidence with a better body image. But here's a few less thought of* ones. Lose weight and crave less sugar. Be kinder to your hips and knees. You might sleep better (especially if you have weight related snoring or apnea). You taste food properly (apparently). Have a better immune system. You'll also have a better chance of surviving surgery (we knew this but do we ever think of it? As a reason to lose weight? Not me). 

And secondly...

When I cut the grass or sit in the sun I like to listen to a pod cast. I found a new one - Stuff You Should Know (it's American) and very diverse - polygamy, carrots and eyes, escaping Alcatraz, panic attacks. The one yesterday was 'How anti dieting works'. Super interesting and all about loving your body as it is, conscious eating, listening to your body and what it needs, eat when hungry and stop when full, and don't feel guilty about having a biscuit or crisps. They suggested that dieting makes you fat! Made sense, but I still feel I want to diet to lose all this excess 5 stones! 

There is SO MUCH info out there! Some contradicting, and not necessary right or wrong. I read it all and make up my own mind. If it says I can eat chocolate and lose weight I'll believe it! 

Life doesn't get easier, you get stronger.

* Not me, just what I've read. 

https://www.precisionnutrition.com/reasons-to-lose-weight