The beach

 

I've been going to the beach a lot with Libby. She loves it. And I do too. She likes to retrieve her ball from the sea. And she'll put the ball on the sand then lay on it, under her back, and wriggle. I think she's scratching an itch, or having a ball massage rather like a hot stone massage lol. I like the sand between my toes and my feet in the cold cold water of the North sea. Makes me feel alive! It's a beautiful beach and only 10 minutes away from home. Libby knows when we head back to the dunes where the carpark is. She'll stand stock still and stare at me, telling me wholeheartedly that she doesn't want to leave. I keep going, so she follows. As much as she wants to stay she's not brave enough to stay by herself! We're so lucky to have the coast right next to us. Good for the soul. Then we go home and I have a coffee, warm my toes and prepare for the day. At this point my husband will tell you that that is my day - drinking coffee on the sofa watching TV! And of course he's right lol but only a little bit. I do clean, mow, shop, bake and cook. I also see friends and neighbours (not the Aussie soap) and try to embrace life. So pardon me lol.

I'm getting confused. This week on the morning TV shows we've had fat shaming and fat embracing. Apparently some university said talking about calories or exercises to reduce your weight is fat shaming! What a load of crock! It's doing my head in. Of course, I call myself fat, cos I is! And I have a handful of friends I talk fat (or skinny) candidly. But generally no one calls me fat (to my face lol) but I wouldn't mind if they did unless they added cow to it lol. Don't Molly coddle. And then Thursday morning Lorraine had a fat black woman who had written a book about celebrating her body. If she is absolutely delighted with her body then that's fabulous. I'd love that. But I seriously can't. I hate my fat! Have I been brainwashed? Over 50 years - yes, probably! Years of fat is bad and thin is good. Friends tell me I'm gorgeous, with my fat. But no matter what they think or say I can not see it myself. I appreciate little bits of me but the whole picture - not good! And then we move to health. Can fat people be healthy? Yes I think some fat people can be healthier than some thin people, absolutely. All the stuff on the inside. But all the evidence says if you are overweight or obese you are more at risk (by a lot) of all those conditions (you know them, not listing them again lol - if you don't know you should pay more attention!). Oh to eat chocolate and not worry....

The only people to see the whole picture are the ones that step out of the frame.