Wood and trees

 

I've been thinking about today's blog for a couple of days. Firstly, my weight has gone down to 10st 11lbs. But should it be 9st 11lbs? I'm wearing a size 12/14 but should I be in 10/12? My BMI is currently 26.7 which is overweight, should it be under 25 so that it's in the normal range? 

I look in the mirror and I think I look really good. The change between before and after is amazing (in my eyes) but am I blind to how I actually really look now? Hence, I can't see the woods for the trees. Some days I see all the fatty, flabby bits and I feel like an overweight person. When I look at some photos I don't look as slim as I do in my head. Why do photos do this? I'm not alone here. 

Initially, my plan was to ask my readers. What do you honestly think? Is my weight loss enough? Have I really done ok or sold myself short? My op was expensive - should I make it work harder? Then I decided that was a stupid idea! 

A. Most of you might be reluctant to tell me what you think in case you offend me. It's human nature (for the majority) to be polite. We are British after all.

B. Those that are happy to be brutal will have lots of differing opinions ...

C. Some thought I was lovely just as I was and didn't need to lose any weight in the first place.

D. Some will just be happy that I've lost over 5½ stones and that I'm healthier and happier. 

E. Some will see that I'm still a size 14, at the top end of 10 stones with an overweight BMI, and yes, I need to do better.

Thus, I've decided to thank you for your opinion but don't bother to share as it is just your own opinion. Everyone is free to have thoughts and I encourage this but letting me know won't help me. For every person that says stop you've done well there will be another saying you should make the most of your tiny tummy and get down to a BMI of 21! I guess I need to do what is best for me. Thank you for listening. 

How weird is this? Last week I was waffling about grammar and apostrophes, also effect and affect - and yesterday I started a course about autism. One of the learning extras was hints and tips about English and it explained apostrophes (also commas, colons and semi colons etc) and the difference between similar words including affect and effect (also practice and practise and lots of others). I was super excited because I bought a book about grammar last year but when I tried to read it it simply bamboozled me. So complicated. But this was really clear and simply and I learnt loads! Though I haven't implemented it in this blog. Lol. 

Have a great week and I'll see you next Friday. 

Sometimes you need to let go of the life you thought you'd be living, and enjoy the story that you are in.