Part II

Current weight : 14st 11.5lbs
Gain : 2 lbs
Fat : 46%

So, where was I? oh yes...

I kept those pre-pregnancy jeans for approx 20 years determind to fit back into them. I only chucked them a year or two ago a) they were really old fashioned and I wouldn't have been seen dead in them b) they were tiny and my bum was never going to fit c) after 20 years it was pretty pathetic holding on to them like they were the holy grail.

I was always on a diet! Losing a few lbs then putting it back on. My best trick was always to start a diet on a Monday then eat as much as I could on a Sunday! I was quite good at losing weight. I have often lost a stone or two, but I excell at putting weight back on. It is my forte I believe and I would challenge anyone to be better. Lots of folk only need to smell food to put on weight, well I can do it if it is within a 500m radius. 

My most successful diet was Slimming World. Red days and Green days, I was all over it. I thought it was so ironic that it was run by 2 lovely ladies who were twice my size! How hilarious is that? I think I got down to about 11st. A size 14. I looked good, I looked good enough. I was happy. It was fine. Stayed like that for a few years I think. Then one morning I woke up and I had caught depression..

Now without getting all morbid obviously depression is nothing like that. It built up slowly, like mould, barely seen then growing behind my back until it rained down on me like nails from a gun. No longer able to ignore it, make excuses for it, think its just bad PMT. I was knocked flat! To make a long story short I ate, and ate and ate.

So that is pretty much my weight gain story. But don't forget...I do have heavy bones.

I have learnt this week that I have lost my skill at being able to lose weight. Seems I'm pretty crap at it actually. Well it will certainly make an interesting weight loss blog ha ha ha ha.

See things as they really are, but only focus on the good.