Disappointing half year figures

I can hardly believe it but that's 6 months of blogging. A whole half year! And look how far I've got? Not exactly my plan I have to say and yet the story of my life. Planning and trying to lose weight but ultimately like pedaling in sinking sand - doing enough to not sink but not really getting anywhere. When I started this blog in June I honestly thought the humiliation of putting my wobbly bits out there would shame me into weight loss. But I kind of feel proud, going this is me, like me or lump me! But this was not my intention. I thought I'd be proud saying I've lost 2 stone and dropped 2 dress sizes. To write a blog called Gilly's Weight Loss Journey and not lose a pound is a joke. Pathetic really. So this next 6 months has got to change - otherwise I'll rename it to Gilly's Journey!

When I look in the mirror I see me but wearing a fat suit. I'm sure I should just be able to unzip it! It's hard to imagine having to carry this excess where ever I go. Like having a child on my back. No wonder my health is deteriorating. I had my eureka moment this week, but no I don't mean it suddenly dawned on me how to lose this weight - more like I jumped into the hot tub and displaced a load of water onto the floor. Spent a lovely day and night at a spa hotel with hubby and my biggest sister and brother in law. We were given robes and slippers! This always makes me nervous in case the robe doesn't go all the way around. But it did, I must have melted somewhat in the sauna. Also had an early Christmas at my mum's. The whole nine yards. Exchanged gifts (no one gave me chocolate!?!), crackers and turkey. My sisters didn't have mash potato and had just one roast. I suspect it was for health reasons ie skinny reasons but if that's their secret I'm not interested, give me the mash and I'll have theirs too!

I've learnt this week that I have just the next 6 months to put the size of my arse behind me! Ha ha, pun intended.

Inside me is a skinny girl screaming to get out, but I shut the bitch up with chocolate.

If past friends are not now in your life, it's probably for a reason!