The chocolate lull

Weight today : 15st 2lb

Christmas gain : 6lbs













I still can't get used to the fact that I don't work at this time of year, I've always worked between Christmas and New Year. I'm here eating all the food instead! And its pretty much just me - no hubby and no daughter, and a son not interested in festive cheer/food. All alone plowing through double cream, single cream, whipping cream, Italian raspberry trifle (OMG - yum), baileys trifle...you get the drift? 

Please don't think that my light hearted writing means I take my weight issues with a pinch of salt, as I don't (it's usually sugar). I am deadly serious, as I hate it beyond words but I like to be a realist. This is my life and I can't put it on hold waiting to be a size 12. I was truly hoping this blog would inspire but I've missed the mark, but at least this is a true reflection of just how tough losing weight is. There are plenty of folk online making it look so easy - celebs/bloggers/vloggers. We envy their bodies and try to emulate but lets face it, most can't. All this 'clean eating' - what? teaching you how to eat spag bol without getting it all over your face and clothes? Fat free/dairy free/gluten free/carb free/sugar free/meat free why not just go the whole hog (no pun intended) and go food free? With a family of coeliacs, and my coeliac linked intolerance, gluten free is no lifestyle choice! However, I do believe that sugar is evil (and OMG so nice) and the root to my problems. 

A few weeks ago I needed some panty liners so grabbed Always Discreet (they were on offer). Discreet!?! My arse. They are like nappies they are so huge!! So big that when I wear one I get a free bikini wax thrown in. I have been glad of them this last week or so. The coughing so bad that I may leak a little lol. When my mother in law found out I was unwell she messaged me 'Relax and soil yourself'. Now I admit to the odd/regular cough peeing but I thought this was a bit much (don't you just love predictive text).

PS picture (sorry its not me - again) my Christmas present. It's great. Even counts my steps when I'm driving! 10,000 a day - no bother, I just go for a drive.

Have a fabulous Hogmanay! I'll see you next year (ha ha that's next week btw) when I'll be back on the program and ready to beat this thing!

The New Year is a new start on old habits!