The usual half

You will all be glad to hear I've put on my usual half a stone holiday/cocktail weight. I do like to be consistent!

I had a great holiday! Lots of good food and drink (obvs) and fabulous weather. Holiday makers in all shapes and sizes, swanning around in very little clothing, including myself in a teeny tiny bikini (oh yes I do!). Some girls with amazing figures, but I no longer aspire to have a body the same because I'm a realist. Now I can hear some of you shouting at me about not having high hopes or whatever but let me clarify... These amazing figures belonged to the young. The newly weds. The ones under 30 years old! I honestly believe that at my age all I can really desire is looking half decent. I know older people who are slim but they still have the stretch marks/flabby tummy/non pert boobs! Leave the pert boobs to the young. I want the figure I had 5 years ago when I thought I was fat and wanted to lose 2 stones. I'm terrified that in another 5 years I'll be desiring the figure I have now!

Which makes me ask - did any of the really big women on holiday look at me and desire my body. No probably not. They were looking at the newly weds longing for their figures! I just want to look in the mirror and not feel sick.

Don't stumble over something behind you!