Fat day, and days

This is my hair, and I love it! Just back from the hairdressers. It may sound conceited but there is not much physically I like so I feel entitled to say I love my hair. Of course it only looks like this after a blow dry. I resist washing it myself for as long as I can because, quite frankly, it then turns into a horrible frizzy mess and I really don't like it.

So why am I talking about my hair? Well (hand on heart, no word of a lie) it hinders my exercise attempts. When my hair looks this gorgeous I don't want to tie it up, get it wet (water or sweat) or generally interfere with it. My hair looks good about half of the time and like a birds nest the other half. I will only exercise when it's a birds nest! You may laugh but it's true. And it's an issue.

You know when you have a fat day? Well I've had a fat week. In order to obtain the hair style (as above) I have to sit in the stylists chair, facing a big mirror, looking at my reflection for over 2 hours. It's not a joy. All I can see is my pasty balloon face with pin eyes. Also, I tried on a skirt I wore just a few months ago and it was too tight. My hubby and I were hoping to go on a skiing holiday in a week or so but I chickened out. No really because it's been 3 years since I pushed myself off a snowy mountain but because I'm heavier than ever and completely unfit. Like incredibly unfit. Not that I'm ever fit but there's unfit and I can't climb up my stairs without puffing unfit. There was a real risk that I'd ski half way down the slope and not manage the rest of the way. Hubby having to roll me down like a giant snowball. And I'm ashamed to say, I even had a binge day this week! 😢

Mind you, all these home truths are slowly but surely dragging me to the day that I have no alternative than to bloody diet! I'm trying to hang on to my unhealthy ways but I know D day is coming!

I've been thinking of my MAPPED.

MOTIVATION - I'm unhappy being over weight and it's making me miserable, there is a high risk of illness and diseases - heart attack, stroke, cancer. Do I even need more than this to motivate me? But there is more - I already have high blood pressure, and snore really loudly, and suspect I have sleep apnoea.

AMBITION - realistically I want to lose 2-3 stones but my real ambition is 5 stones.

PLAN - in a nutshell - start walking further and exercise when I can. To start with one fast day, then 2 fast days, then ensure the non fast days are healthy, then move to the Fast 800 plan. I have a schedule the 3 weeks to get to Fast 800. To always think of my motivations and desires. To weigh myself every morning - this one is the most important plan!

PREPARE - hum, I have been on the scales to get my current weight (15st 3lbs). I've eaten all the chocolate from Christmas, I need to do a healthy food shop but I still need to think about I need to buy.

ENERGY - I have none of this but hopefully the longer dog walks will help and I need to return to the gym, play badminton, and dance in my kitchen like no one is watching (actually no one is watching - bonus)

DESIRE - this one is easy. To wear size 12, to not snore, to be healthy, to not have a balloon face, for my wedding ring to fit, to just look and feel much much better than I do.

If you only remember one thing, make it this - Life is short and this is it!